Week 18
So week 16 and 17, I was so focused on studying. I felt such a giant sense of failure on Friday when I took the interview. They mentioned that they like to get back to us asap if they decide to move forward, and I was checking my email every couple minutes hoping to hear back with something positive. And then I gave up. The weekend passed, and I told myself I shouldn't care because my current job is great, and the people are great. I realized I just hate the feeling of failing.
On Monday, I finally heard back. I received a call, and they definitely drew out the greeting. I thought for sure that meant I didn't make it. And then, they said something along the lines of "The team really liked you, and would like to move forward with an offer." I was flabbergasted. Also started getting anxiety over negotiating compensation, and also giving my resignation letter.
I've been trying to gather as much information about it as possible, and I've officially accepted the offer. Honestly, I'm feeling really bad about resigning from my current position. Between the short time I've been here, and also the fact that I was the only developer working on my project I feel like I'm leaving my company in a very bad position. But I'm also super excited about moving forward with the new opportunity. I don't know, I'm feeling pretty conflicted. I also asked to have a longer time before starting, so that I can help the company transition more smoothly. Hopefully that helps.
Gave my official notice of resignation. Seemed like I didn't burn any bridges, and they would still want me in the future if I came back. So I guess that's pretty good. I'm also going to stay a week longer than planned just to help them finish everything up.
I've been doing some exercises at home, mostly push ups, but my lower back has been hurting a little. I can't tell if its my sitting posture or something else.
Also just a thought, but when I was still going to counseling, I didn't really know what I would consider to be successful. I set my goal to be one of the top tech companies, so like Google, Facebook, Amazon, Apple, Microsoft. But now that I've accepted an offer at Amazon, does that make me successful? I don't really feel like too different, other than I feel like I might not meet what's expected of me when I do start working.